~ kHaZaNaH_iLLaHi ~

Tonight.. a sister’s heart is crying again.. sister is so0o0o0o sad... its not because of others, its because of sister’s own sister...

I feel so sad actually.. my sis is too upset because she lost her handset.. she ask everybody about it, just like a policeman do his investigation..

So.... why i need to be sad because of that..? hmm i’m not sad because of she lost her handset.. you know what, as a solution, she take my bag which i put triple of my handset in it.. still, i’m not sad because of that.. i don’t care about it.. but its hurt when she’s just accuse without investigating it first.. its not what ummi and ayah teach us......

And it becomes more sad when she take out one of my handset, and also one of my simcard.. i dunnno what exactly the purpose of she doing that to me.. she could never have respect for our parents, so how can she respect me..

N now, she’s keeping my handset and my simcard, without eva my permission.... now she’s sleeping soundly........ n me..? i’m here.. still here...

“o0 Allah... I pray the best for our family.. for his family.. n for all of us... Ameen Ya Rabb Ya Allah.....”
** n now, i feel so sad.. its rainy here...

Tuhanku…
daku hadir..daku pasrah…
Mengenangkan diri ini yang penuh dosa..
Tuhanku…ku sedari…
Namun kealpaan menyelubungi
Lantas ku sujud menyerah padaMu
Agar disirami cahya kasihMu…

Dikaulah Harapanku
Dikaulah Kekasihku
Dikaulah Segalanya
Tempat ku mengadu..ku hadir pada-Mu…

Tuhanku…
Kau pengasih…Kau pemurah…
Mengurniakan daku rahmat dan kasihMu
Sungguh aku tak layak untuk SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula sanggup untuk ke NerakaMu
Kerna itu ku sujud menyerah padaMu
Agar disirami cahya kasih
Dikaulah harapanku
Dikaulah kekasihku
Dikaulah segalanya
Tempat ku mengadu..ku hadir padaMu…

Tuhan selangkah ku rapat kepadaMu
Seribu langkah kau padaku
Ku tahu pengampunanMu melangit tinggi
Engkaulah…engkaulah….
Dikaulah harapanku
Dikaulah kekasihku
Dikaulah segalanya
Tempat ku mengadu..ku hadir padaMu…

~Allah... Ku rindu pada-Mu... Cintakanku kepada si dy yang mencintau-Mu.. Labuhkan rinduku buat si dia yang sering menghadiahkan munajatny di sepertiga akhir malam pada-Mu Ya Rabb..... Kembalikan ‘Umar Mujahid buatku Allah.....~